May 2006

You know your computer has taken over your life when you tell your mom that you’re going through your old things and *deleting* all the stuff you don’t want.

Oh dear…

I straightened my hair (it’s actually a lot longer, but I tied the other layers back because it gets craaaazy):

I love this picture:

I met Vishal Mangalwadi last monday night. My friend Evelyn’s boyfriend’s brother is his researcher, so we got to go to one of his lectures

Origins came and went so fast! *sigh* I miss it already…

We have 6 days to move out… I thought it was 9, but I just looked at my calendar. Yeah, it’s 9… upside down. I supposed I should start packing my room.
If I was never born I would never have know what Cirque du Soleil was. I would never have heard Bjork. I would never have seen Germany or Spain or Thailand or Brazil. I would never have known the beautiful eccentricities of humankind… Lot’s of people wish they were never born, but just think of all the wonderful things you would never have experienced! It’s so worth it.

Argh! I’m working on such a hard last page of music! If any of you have heard Mozart’s “Rondo alla Turk”, you know how cool it is… but the last page is so hard!! I can play it just fine when the tempo is 120, but 180?! I can say quite honestly that after I play this piece, my hands hurt because of it’s intensity. It’s going to take me 4318347 years to finish it (and I’ve been working diligently this past week)…

The ghastly music (well, it looks easy in this picture):

Me and Lucas being cool:

My bed and some of my books:

Flowers!:

Oh oh oh, I met George Hunter today!! He’s the author of this book here:

I met these two people yesterday who said I was really cool. I’m not entirely sure I believe them.

You know what I was thinking the other day- why do kids have favorite colors? What is the significance of a favorite color? Who invented that concept anyway?

So there is this great phrase that I just love: “as a matter of fact”. If you really think of it, it’s quite humorous. Most people use it as one slurred word. What if it was really one word- asamatteroffact. That would be awesome.

Happy mother’s day to my mom and all moms!

Mom- I love you so much. There are no words in this language or any other that can describe the love I have for you. What would I do without you? Thank you for being my mother! I love you, te amo, ich liebe dich, amin mela lle, eu te amo, je t’aime, eg elska tig, aishiteru… I would keep going, but I think you get the point.

I LOVE YOU MOM

Ok… so there’s this thing called life and the human experience and for a long time I thought, “It’s not fun because it’s been done for, like, thousands and thousands of years”. True- the human experience has been done before. So what? It doesn’t make it any less exciting. It doesn’t make it any less new.

Ever since then I’ve been acting like a child. Not immature… curious. Everything is new! I mean, come on, just think how Adam was when he was first created: the excitement in his eyes as he viewed a world none had ever seen before, as he touched objects none had ever touched before, as he experienced emotions none had ever experienced before. Well, that’s no different for me. I only think it would be more fun if people didn’t have names for things. Yes, it would be super confusing without language, but you could experience everything without the constraints of names. Like, when you look at an apple you probably think, “Oh, it’s just an apple.” JUST an apple? If we didn’t have a name for it, it would be this totally awesome, circular, delicious, edible spark of genius! Maybe? Maybe not…

One thing I hate (Sorry… greatly dislike) is names for emotions. Oh my, I don’t know why I dislike it so much. One time I experienced an emotion that I had never experienced before, and I didn’t know what it was. Yeah, I ran through my list of emotions captured by the likes of mankind: LOVE, HATE, SADNESS, HAPPINESS, ANGER, GUILT- but it wasn’t any of those. I didn’t want to tell ANYONE because I was afraid they would say, “Oh, it’s just anger.” or “you’re just surprised”. JUST angry? JUST surprised? Why, that sucks all the passion out of the emotion! I would actually feel it less if I knew what it was.
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Thoughts? Concerns? How do you deal with life?